T-minus 6 hours

Hello all.

So this is the bomb: I'm on the flight to the Philippines tonight at 11:50 PM. 

I'm finally coming home, and I hope to see you all soon. Mwah mwah mwah. 

Pray for my safe trip! ^_^

LET'S DROP SOME BOMBS, SHALL WE?

[LINK] A BIG CHANGE IS COMING

AND I WANT IT TO BE A SURPRISE EVEN THOUGH I AM SO ITCHING TO TELL YOU! 

The Simplicity of Wonderland

One day Alice came to a fork in the road and saw a Cheshire cat in a tree. "Which road do I take?" she asked. "Where do you want to go?" was his response. "I don't know," Alice answered. "Then," said the cat, "it doesn't matter."

- Lewis Carroll

Here we go...

a post before I turn myself in to the Finals Week Abyss

I just lost my Blackberry. I'm sad not because it's a Blackberry but because I don't have a phone and I feel isolated. I'm not a text-maniac or it's not like I use the phone all the time. It's just that it's my only reminder that I need to let other people in my life because I can not possibly make it as island. I'm still hoping that the world is not that bad yet, and someone who got my phone will turn it in to the lost and found, and I will see it again. 

On a side note, I am just relieved that this happened to me concerning an expensive phone that I did not buy myself (it was a hand-me-down). Because if I did buy it, I wouldn't be able to talk for the next couple of days.

Grey's Anatomy. All I can say is: seriously. They're all so clever in manipulation. That's why I love this show so much. First, there was the rumors of Katherine and T.R. leaving, complete with someone actually confirming it and then the producers de-confirming it. And then there was the Finale. Where we are all left WINDANG, seriously exhausted and craving for next season. I just have to say that the moment they planned all of 5th season, it included all the conspiracy and false publicity. Way to go!!! (no I'm not sarcastic. I really applaud their ingenuity). I can't wait for next season! 

Decisions decisions decisions. For a while now, I've been thinking that there was something wrong with the way I grew up that I am literally always so dumb-stuck in making decisions. It's always like, "I don't know what I want". Even though sometimes I know, there are more times that I don't and that I almost need other people to just tell me what to do. 

The deal is, right now I have to make a decision. And this decision will be about me and my future. Before, I always think of my decision as for other people. But I think this time, it's about me - more about me. So I feel the need to step up. Now if only I have all the guts...

Well, enough of my rambling. I seriously need to study now. I've decided (...this is a start...) that I will only think about FINALS for now. I will think about the rest after Monday. And this blog is just to let it all out of the way. 

Melted Like Butter at Tumblr

http://www.meltedlikebutter.tumblr.com
This is where all my inspirations go. See creativity and beauty.

i hate it when you wake up and you wouldn't see any indication that the day is gonna be bad

barely 24 hours after spring break is officially history (which is itself an unfortunate event), more series of unfortunate events have occurred. 

1. big exam scheduled today. and I thought there couldn't be anything worse than that.

2. woke up on time, turned off alarm, fell asleep again and woke up 30 minutes late.

3. car wouldn't start, and for a moment, it seemed like I was going to miss the big exam.

4. arrived at school on time, but forgot the all-important eraser.

5. exam's difficulty is beyond rooftop level. that, or my head is still in spring break mode.

6. one of my instructors announced today that she won't be with us anymore because she was diagnosed breast cancer. we all cried during announcement.

right now it's only 11:45 am. I'm here in the nice library, alone and waiting for Lala. 

not even half of the day is done, and it's already looking unpromising. 

"Life is what happens to you when you're busy making other plans." - John Lennon in Beautiful Boy

spring break projects

I've got a LOOOONG list of personal projects. And with nursing and all other stuff, I don't get to do anything. But since it's spring break... ^____^ I finally accomplished some of it. As of day 3:

1. new blog: Melted Like Butter at Tumblr [link] - somewhere to post interesting things and art inspirations.

2. closet hideaway - I've always wanted to take pictures inside my doorless closet. Kasi....... wala lang. hehehe So one sleepless night, I did. [link]

3. wreck my jeans - a very good therapy. I grated, tore and stabbed-to-death some parts of it. 

4. visual journaling - I finally started this. It's been known as a good therapy to face fears by avoiding neatness, grammar and order in writing (a very weird and fearsome task for semi-O.C.'s). And it's also a good therapy for letting go of mental constrictions by just going where your mind wanders. ::creativity outlet::

1st entry: "I don't think I'll ever be quite a grown up."

5. (another journal-related project) 100 randomized things to do in your journal - derived from Keri Smith's 100 ideas for a journal (hers is actually just up to 95, so I made 5 of my own).Keri Smith is the maker of the Wreck This Journal book: if you don't know what it is, check it out here. What I did is, instead of making a notebook and writing each task on the top of a page, I made it more random by cutting up each task in strips of paper, rolled it and put it in a mug so that I'll just pick up one each day and paste it on my journal. ^_^ 

And this is the mug:

some stuff inside: Fill an entire page of your journal with small circles, Make a map of everywhere you went in one day, Draw your dinner

Other pending projects: 

+ organize closet like below: with color coordination of hangers (I want to be a little bit more O.C.)

+ make a floor plan of my dream bedroom (just because.)

Why I'm doing all of these: Because I want spontaneity. I want to fill my world and my little brain with beautiful and inspiring things. I want to be able to grab something or go somewhere that can take me away from reality even for just a little while...

And because there is insufficient budget for a shrink session lately. LOL

Try it, might work for you too.