a post before I turn myself in to the Finals Week Abyss

I just lost my Blackberry. I'm sad not because it's a Blackberry but because I don't have a phone and I feel isolated. I'm not a text-maniac or it's not like I use the phone all the time. It's just that it's my only reminder that I need to let other people in my life because I can not possibly make it as island. I'm still hoping that the world is not that bad yet, and someone who got my phone will turn it in to the lost and found, and I will see it again. 

On a side note, I am just relieved that this happened to me concerning an expensive phone that I did not buy myself (it was a hand-me-down). Because if I did buy it, I wouldn't be able to talk for the next couple of days.

Grey's Anatomy. All I can say is: seriously. They're all so clever in manipulation. That's why I love this show so much. First, there was the rumors of Katherine and T.R. leaving, complete with someone actually confirming it and then the producers de-confirming it. And then there was the Finale. Where we are all left WINDANG, seriously exhausted and craving for next season. I just have to say that the moment they planned all of 5th season, it included all the conspiracy and false publicity. Way to go!!! (no I'm not sarcastic. I really applaud their ingenuity). I can't wait for next season! 

Decisions decisions decisions. For a while now, I've been thinking that there was something wrong with the way I grew up that I am literally always so dumb-stuck in making decisions. It's always like, "I don't know what I want". Even though sometimes I know, there are more times that I don't and that I almost need other people to just tell me what to do. 

The deal is, right now I have to make a decision. And this decision will be about me and my future. Before, I always think of my decision as for other people. But I think this time, it's about me - more about me. So I feel the need to step up. Now if only I have all the guts...

Well, enough of my rambling. I seriously need to study now. I've decided (...this is a start...) that I will only think about FINALS for now. I will think about the rest after Monday. And this blog is just to let it all out of the way.